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Thursday, August 18, 2011

A devastating Loss- My Best Friend



Hi Friends-
I just wanted to let you know why I have been missing-in-action in regards to visiting your blogs and following up on the links for Mailbox Monday. I barely feel strong enough to post this..but I need to honor Bruce's life and by doing this I guess I'm admitting to myself that he is gone from this world. On Monday evening Bruce died doing what he loved the most...running around the yard and chasing his pal Lily and our stupid Razor. But this time we had a small wagon attached to the Razor and Bruce ran behind it and the wagon ran him over. To say that it was devastating to witness is an understatement. I'm working really hard to get his final moments out of my memory, but I need to remember that I was the last voice and hands he felt and take some sort of comfort in that. Bruce was my first ever dog that just belonged to me. He's been my sidekick for 8 years and over that course of time he showed me what unconditional love was really about. He knew when I was sad and gave me comfort. He loved to play with his monkey and putting Lily in her place on a daily basis. My husband, son, Lily (our other dog) and myself are lost without Bruce right now. Nothing feels right. My morning routine isn't right. The quietness of my house is not right. That's what killing me the most right now...the damn quiet. So, I'm taking a break right now. The reviews that I posted this week were done last week. I guess God knew what he had planned for me when he made me feel like I should get ahead of the game huh? I'll try really hard to visit everyone on Mailbox Monday next week...and I will post for that because I know that I need to try to get back to the 'new' normal. However, I can't say when I will be by visiting your lovely blogs. Thanks for taking the time to visit my blog and always giving me support throughout the three years that I've been blogging. Many of you are familiar with Bruce and know what he meant to me. Your kindness is what will help me and my family heal.

Love,
Staci


68 comments:

  1. Oh no! Not Bruce :( I can't stand it when pets die. I'm so so sorry.

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  2. Oh Staci, I'm so so sorry for your loss :( Sending much sympathy and virtual hugs your way.

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  3. I'm so sorry Staci. Losing a pet is just so hard. *hug*

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  4. Oh no! I can't even imagine what you are going through right now. As you said though, the love and comfort that you were able to provide him with is what he took with him.

    Hugs. I will be thinking of you all. I remember when my first dog.. the one I never talk about went to the vet and hard a heart attack right on the table. I was so stricken. It was so sudden but that quietness... no tags jingling. Made me very sad.

    I'm here is you need to talk.

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  5. I am so sorry Staci *hugs* I know how it feels to lose a pet, I miss them and they will always be in my heart

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  6. You know I understand, with the loss of Charlee. But I almost think its worse when it is so sudden. At least I had a bit of time to prepare myself. And I know what you mean about the damn QUIET! See, I have to shout the word because its too damn unsettling.

    I offer you comfort and an "e"ar when you need to chat about the dog that was yours....

    Charlee was mine in that sense too -- I picked him out with Anna and we took him home -- he was ours and then mine for a long time when Anna married and had The Girl.

    My thoughts are with you and do cherish all those memories you had with Bruce over 8 years.

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  7. Oh Staci, I am soooo sorry for your loss. {{{Staci}}} My heart and prayers go out to you and yours. I know you'll miss Bruce, but how wonderful it is that you were blessed to have eight years of unconditional love. That's quite a gift!

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  8. Oh my dear friend......... I am so sorry for your loss! I know it well... (I still miss my Miss Kitty often) and can totally understand what you mean when you say about your morning routine not being right, the quietness not being right... nothing feels right.

    I pray for those moments and little 'gifts' to come your way that will comfort your heart. I don't know what they could be, but He knows and cares.... and is looking for ways to share the ache.

    Hugs...............from me to you!

    Brenda

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  9. Awww, Staci. I am so very sorry to read this sad news. I've really only had two dogs that I'd consider "mine" since they entered my adult life rather than during my childhood, and I've only lost one. As Serena said, it's so much more difficult when it's sudden and unexpected. Much like the loss of any family member who is taken too soon. I know your routines are out of sorts and my heart breaks for you. Take all the time you need and know we're all thinking of you.

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  10. ohhhhhhhhhhhhh no staci... i am so so so sorry for your loss... {{{hugs}}} my dear friend... I am crying with you.....

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  11. So many people ache along with you.

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  12. Staci, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss! My thoughts and prayers are with you...

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  13. I am in tears for you and your family. I am so sorry for your devastating loss of Bruce.

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  14. Oh Staci, I am so sorry...such a tragic accident and it is so very hard to say good-bye to one of our furbabies. Although it was hard to be there, I just know that Bruce felt comfort having you with him. Many hugs to you...

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  15. Oh, Staci, I am so so sorry to read this and I am devastated just reading your story. I truly understand your loss and know that you need time to work through this. Take as much time as you need, don't worry about us, and we are all sending you hugs and support. Take care.

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  16. Oh, Staci, I'm so sorry about Bruce and that you had to see it happen. A little distance from it will help the wonderful memories overtake that terrible one. I'm sending you a hug. I've been there. I know how you feel. Thank goodness you could be there at the end for him.

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  17. So sorry to hear that awful news! Sending many hugs and much sympathy!

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  18. I'm sorry to hear about Bruce. We lost our first cat 3 years ago and it's still feels strange not having him around. I understand your loss and wish you a life of happiness again soon.

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  19. Dear Staci,

    I am so sad after reading this post. I have a lump in my throat just imagining what you are going through. We love you friend and are here for you. HUGS

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  20. Oh, Staci, I'm so sorry for your loss! Please know that I am thinking of you in what I imagine is the most difficult of times.

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  21. I'm so sorry, Staci! How terrible that you had to see that happen to Bruce. Pets may come into our homes as simply animals but they leave as beloved friends and family members.

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  22. I am so sorry about your loss and you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  23. I'm so sorry for your loss, Staci. Losing a furry friend is so hard. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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  24. Oh Staci, I am so sorry. Sending love and hugs your way.

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  25. Staci... no need to publish this comment, I am just hoping that you will send me your addy??? Thanks love :) Thinking of you :)

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  26. Some of my blogger friends are having the saddest times right now. I am so sorry for you. I can't imagine having to witness it, but at least you were there for him in the end. I think that's important. I am sending tears and a very big hug your way.

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  27. Staci, I was so sad when you told me you lost Bruce. How strange that I just met him in person the week before.

    I am praying for you and your family. It's tough to lose a pet, especially one that was like a child to you almost.

    I know how much he meant to you, and I am here for you if you need anything at all.

    Hugs

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  28. I am so very sorry, Staci. Lots of prayers for comfort coming your way. (Hugs)

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  29. *hugs* I'm so sorry, Staci...

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  30. Sending much sympathy your way.

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  31. Each one of us who have had a dog know just how you are feeling. I'm so very sorry, Staci. I still ache for every dog I've known and lost over the years, but especially for Ben who died in January. Life does go on, but not in the same way. What we've tried to do with our Sadie, the one who is left, is to make new routines, new adventures - things we didn't do when Ben was alive. Again, I'm so sad for you, dear one.

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  32. Staci, you know I'm mourning the loss of Bruce with you. I know how much he meant to you and your family. It is so hard to move on and try to live again after a loss so devastating. It's almost been a year since I had to say goodbye to Buddy and I still feel his loss deeply each and every day. My heart is breaking for you and I've cried more than once with you. Love you lots my friend and you know I'm an email or a phone call away if you need me. Hugs.

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  33. Oh, I'm so sad for you about the loss of Bruce. Dogs can be such wonderful companions and imagining life without them seems impossible. Enjoy remembering the moments you shared!

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  34. So sorry, Staci. I feel for you. I remember how devastating it was when our dog Harvey died three years ago. It takes a while to get over it, but I'm sure you will.

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  35. So sorry, Staci. I feel for you. I remember how devastating it was when our dog Harvey died three years ago. It takes a while to get over it, but I'm sure you will.

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  36. I am so sorry for your loss of your best friend....there are no words to take your pain away, but just know that I am thinking of you during this difficult time. Bruce was the one who caught my eye in your header when I first discovered your blog a couple of years ago...

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  37. I am so sorry Staci! I understand exactly what you mean about the quiet. It is actually deafening. I hope you will be able to put the bad memories out of your mind and remember the good times. I'll be keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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  38. I am terribly sorry to hear your news. I remember loosing my family pet dog at 16, he was the family dog but really he was mine. Its devestating and its like a piece of you is torn out. There is nothing I can say that can help you feel better or make the pain any less, just know I understand your pain and hope like me one day you will remember only the good things and the joy he brought you.

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  39. OMG Staci. Of course you cannot be reading/writing blog posts now. You need to mourn you loss. We all understand that. Take your time and come back only when you really feel up to it. A nice break might be what you need now. We'll still be here when you come back.

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  40. Staci, I'm so sorry! You and I often talk about our boys and dogs. I know how much Bruce means to you. If I could I would knock on your door and give you a big hug. Our dogs are our companions, they are so devoted and give us unconditional love.

    Hugs to you, Lily and your family.

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  41. Bruce sounds like he was a wonderful dog and I'm sure the pain must be unbearable right now.

    I'm so sorry about your loss.

    Hugs!
    Kim

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  42. I'm so very, very sorry for your loss. What helped me when I lost my Didi was that I was there to comfort her at the end and tell her how much I loved her.

    Remember the happy times, and take all the time you need to grieve. Took me a long time to get over the quiet and stop looking for her, so I know a little of what you might be going through. *hugs*

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  43. Staci, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss of Bruce. There are no words to make this easier...I'm thinking of you, and hope that you can find some peace in your break. Treasure those memories and know that Bruce was just as fortunate to be part of your life and family. ((Hugs))

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  44. So sad to hear about Bruce. I had to have our dog put down earlier this year. She had diabetes and had finally reached a point where she couldn't eat. Even though we had time to prepare, it was the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life so far. As you are, I was totally off my game for awhile. Take the time you need and know that we are all praying for comfort and healing to come your way.

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  45. I'm so sorry for your loss, Staci. {Hugs}

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  46. Oh Staci, I just got back from a weekend away and read your post. I'm so, so sad for you and your family, I know how much darling little Bruce meant to you.
    Hold on to the fact that Bruce knew how much you loved him and you gave him that to take on his final journey.

    I wish I was there to give you a hug. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, take the time to grieve, remember and heal.

    {{hugs}} Sheree xx

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  47. My deepest sympathies on your loss -- losing a pet is like losing a family member.

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  48. Dear Staci, I know how your heart aches and I am so sorry for your loss. Praying for you and your family. I honor Bruce's memory. Sending hugs.

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  49. Thoughts and prayers for you and family. When I read about your dog Bruce's passing I felt a huge lump in my throat that would not go down.

    Thinking of you and the love he left with you all.

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  50. I'm very sorry Staci. I know how hard it is to lose a furbaby :( Take care!

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  51. Oh Staci!I just came across this news and I feel terrible for you. So sorry for your loss...

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  52. Aww, Sweetie, I can't even express how sad I am for you. How heartbreaking. Bruce was such a huge part of your life. May his memories help you and your family heal. Big cyber {{{hugs}}}} sending your way.

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  53. Oh, Staci, I'm so so sorry to hear of your loss. I know it's liking losing a member of your family.

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  54. What a sad loss; I can't imagine how difficult it is for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  55. So very sorry to hear about your losing Bruce.

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  56. Staci, I have been missing in action this week and just read about your loss. I am so very sorry and hope you and the family are doing as well as you can when you lose a friend like Bruce.

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  57. I am so sorry for your loss. I have two dogs and I love them as much (maybe more some days) as family.

    *hugs* friend.

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  58. I am so sorry! Losing a pet is losing a member of your family. Sounds like you have wonderful memories to hold on to.

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  59. I am so sorry for your loss. I haven't been on before but i read Darlene's blog and I just had to extend my sympathies.
    It is a hard thing to lose such a close friend. He knew you were there with him, you were a comfort to him. I can tell that he knew you loved him, and he you. It is indeed an emptier world.

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  60. I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how difficult it is to lose a beloved pet. Hugs!

    -jehara

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  61. So sorry for your loss and for the fact that I'm so late reading this. Bruce sounds like he was much loved, and even though he left you too soon, at least you were able to show him how much you cared in the end. ((HUGS))

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  62. I'm so sorry that your beloved dog has died. That is so sad. I don't know how I missed this post earlier, but when I saw your header image I knew there had to be a post here somewhere about your puppy.

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  63. I'm so sorry you lost Bruce, Staci. It's so hard to lose a pet. Take care.

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  64. Oh sweetheart, I know, I know. I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers {{{hugs}}}

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  65. Oh Staci, I just saw your post (I was away) and I'm so sorry to hear about Bruce. I know how hard it is to lose a beloved pet. My thoughts are with you and your family. Hugs.

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  66. I stopped by to read your book review today and saw the icon for this. I'm so sorry for your loss of Bruce. I recently lost one of my "furbabies" so I know how much it hurts. Remember the good times, it'll help deal with the loss.

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